::imaginative introspection::

Imagine that all life is an illusion. All that exists is this moment. No past, no future, each memory, every plan, a part of the illusion. Life, in a photograph.

Do you like the image of yourself?

Sunday, November 25, 2012


I have this

and nowhere to rest it.

Except in my own hands.


I stand strong
And lift up my love
So the world can see it shine
In the sun

I find the beauty
in the cracks
Now healed
Clean scars now glisten
Like cuts on a diamond.

In this new light
I can light up
Some stranger's shadows,
And they can stand strong,

Saturday, November 24, 2012


I think, deep down someplace I'm an artist, poet, musician gypsy, that got lost along the way.

Torn asunder

We talk until I drift to sleep
Smiling at your
Always creeping into my
Romantic ideology.

Science rings true in this
Mutual philosophy:
Why defy simple biology?

The heart wants what the heart wants

Music is the ultimate language,
And even whales sing
Now, though I wonder if perhaps they dream.

Surely you'd cite the late night cries
Of some beloved canine,
Chasing rabbits in an imaginary land.

Somehow you are home and I am all but lost without you.

Still aching from that loss, I cling to the reality if you. Stay alive, I can't handle any more.

You were family when mine was all too distant, if only in their minds.

Oh, love.

The light creeps in and here I am, wishing for the impossible, and wondering if you see me.

Love only hurts if you let it, yet here I am breaking my own heart again, worth it for a glimpse into your mind, and your thoughts on this world we share.

For this, the loud, dangerous, beautiful world that is -- a world torn asunder.

For now I'll sleep until the sun shines in my face. Here, in the only place I really feel safe.

Where you could reach me.

Tuesday, November 20, 2012


I'll sing you a lullaby
You'll hold my hand
We'll go dancing to

In my dreams you're always smiling
In my dreams you're always there

Do you remember, darlin, when I used to wake up scared?

You promised you would be there,
to guard against the dark,
And even when circumstance
would force us far apart

You promised to be always in my heart.

You're always in my heart.

You held me til the sunshine
was hot against my face
And spoke of the adventures
We would have that day
You sang to me so softly
I almost missed your words
I've loved you for forever
If only you knew

But here I am afraid again
Miles away from you
I wish you were here to hold me

I'm out of reach to you.

Thursday, November 15, 2012

When I Am Gone

Remember me strong
Remember me smart
Remember me dancing
Remember all the adventures we've had all these years.

Remember my science
Remember my art
Remember my mysteries
Remember the times I sang out to the stars.

Remember my laughter
Remember my tears
Remember all of the arguments we've had all these years.

Remember my smile
Remember my kiss
Remember love! Love! LOVE! I've loved you, all of these years.

All daisy-chains and sunshine.

Little girl lost
Stop your haunting
I'm no home for you
Find your way back to those stars you came from
Though, you're always in my heart.

She's all daisy-chains and sunshine
She's all strawberries with cream
She's all fairy wings and secrets
But she's just a dream to me.

Little girl lost
Stop your haunting
I'm no home for you
Find your way back to those stars you came from
Though, you're always in my heart

OH, shame.

I drank a beer with Jesus,
Asked him how I'd change the world,
Asked him how he plans on waking up
These men who hide behind their fear
Claiming Religion and 'tradition',
While clinging to their own lies,
As they watch one of my sisters
Buried far before her time.

I drank a beer with Jesus.
Asked him to hold my hand,
Asked him to help me stand,
As I spoke about the danger of ignorance
To a room of apathetic men.

I spoke of science, of medicine, of faith, I argued for the ethics, and reminded them of their own mistakes.

I drank a beer with Jesus.
He didn't have the answers,
Just looked at me and sighed.

I don't plan in giving up,
So hear my battle cry.

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

Escape to Neverland?

Lets run away
Lets run away and be gypsy musicians
You play the fiddle
I'll dance with the tambourine
And just imagine
How happy we will be

Lets run away
Lets run away and be gypsy musicians

We won't need to worry
We won't need to care
We'll sing for our dinner
And never cut our hair.

Friday, November 2, 2012