Neo

New year New breath New start New hope

I take a risk and once again

can feel the weight of the pen

as I work to tame the rampant thoughts

and dare to dream again

I watch the cold icy wind blow around my fragile skin

and yet I'm numb from within

observing without feeling, seems like sin

but take the chance and start to feel a flicker here and there-- so real

and suddenly I've broken free

I recall who I once used to be

and laugh out loud to think that I

almost let this flicker die

Cause I'm only human, as they say

I'll live this life day to day

and with a prayer on my lips

I leap into the snowy drifts

Traffic like the roar 11.07.2008

Traffic like the roar

of an automatic ocean,

I close my eyes and dream so far away.

and with a breath

I’m there once more

sun warm on my face.

you call me back to reality

and I Tear my mind away from serenity

all is lost for eternity

you take my hand to lead me away

into the cold darkness which comes

only after that last flickering light which is life

is but out by the icy cold breath of death himself.

I wake, gasping, blinded by sunlight

as I am once more reborn,

given another chance to find the answer.

 

11.07.2008

I journey on 06.18.2008

I fly above with watchful eye

to journey home

at last will i.

From places where

the ocean’s

 coast rush

 to meet the sloping shore,

past ancient bearded mountains

full of lore

I journey on.

o’er deep red stone the waters hewn

their path and paths to come

I journey on o’er rich gold fields

which glint and sway on wind’s heels

I journey home

to emerald valleys where rivers flow

and hidden there,

beneath the leaves,

you’ll find my heart,

though quivering.

although I’ve seen the wonders hidden

behind the shadow of the earth

a place both harsh and intricate,

a place for my rebirth

I long for peaceful quiet

and the hint of music

magic

beckoning me home. 

 

6/18/2008

sun rise sun 11.24.2008

sun rise sun

illuminates transparent skin

i watch You breathe

a silent moment You

look at me

eyes saying everything

don't be so afraid

i pull You close

Your lips wet

against my skin

feel You tremble at

my touch

You're safe with me, 

love

You're safe with me. 

sun rise sun

bring your warmth

dry these tears

and breathe once more

i'll be Your light now

close Your eyes

and sleep child sleep

oh sun rise sun

11.24.2008

broken

The words she cannot say aloud.

 

Desperate eyes plead against

one cold hardened stare.

Broken under derision. 

Nights spent awake

in silent darkness, waiting.   

god left this place long ago

with trembling hands a prayer

rises with the smoke

a breath cut short in the darkness

as lungs dare not move under

clenched fists.

and with the sunrise

peace for a short while.

 

 

 

10.29.2008

 

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Angel on the sea

Water runs red

As I wash today's dead

from these dirty bloody pocket.

I've been fighting all my life

to somehow stay alive

and all I've got today

are these dirty bloody pockets.

I'm fighting off the waves

God's threat to me each day

Some say I'm just crazed

but I can hear the angel

when

I sit perched precariously,

where the rocks meet the sea,

and she sings,

with a song on the wind

follow me, 

I'll show you places you could never see

places you could never see

sing for me

I'll bring you riches you could never dream

riches you could never dream

I take her hand

and with one deep breath we're flyin so high.

we're so high

we're so high

and I'll dance with you tonight

and we'll sing to the sky

and when we stopped

the gods, they cried.

Mesmerized

Raindrop, Falling

Raindrop, Falling

a perfect image of life 

until it collapses

in a splash of glory

that 

mesmerizes my mind

it

mesmerizes my mind

raindrop, falling

raindrop.  falling.

like an angel from the sky

and we all look up

and wonder why

our lives just seem

to fly by

and 

we've got raindrops in our eyes

we've got raindrops in our eyes

and

everyone tries

when an angel dies

to find the light

within her eyes

but all we can see

is the rain in the sky

and that perfect image of life,

mesmerized

*cause I love to sing!*

Jazz, Coffee and Hope

Theres somethin about the soothin sounds of jazz, 

makes me want to open up a midnight coffee shop, 

makes me want to stand up and sing about hope to the world,

Theres somethin about the soothin sounds of jazz,

makes me want to let my hips sway and dance away 

makes me want to let my fears loose and my voice out

Theres somethin about the soothin sounds of jazz. . . 

darlin you cant go on hiding from the world

i want to dance with you, is that too hard? 

to spend a night back in your arms?  

 want to sing to you my favorite song 

and smile again as you sing along.  

I want to laugh with you in the dark as we run away from being adults.  

I want to let my fears go and hope for love, 

but it seems now that i'll always be alone

or will we just continue waiting for a better chance?

with a smile you can take my breath

 and i feel like a child again

always learning, playing, loving and so very full of love, hope, joy--

A Brief Note on Science, Faith and Definitions

There is beauty in even the smallest things, organic, inorganic, living or dead. And within this beauty is strength. A spirituality develops with the limits of human knowledge--what we don't know is the basis of any spiritualism. There is so much unknown to us still, and so much beauty in the unknown. Yet it seems far to difficult to limit everything inculded in spirituality into the confines of one religion, one denomination, one faith.

search for grace

In a dream

I walk

the empty streets
that lead
to nowhere
sending me on
an eternal

search

for

grace.

I lose my  way  again
as I find
I've 

circled back 

to 

my beginning.
With a 

deep 

breath
my hope  somehow  intact I 

continue on 

my 

journey towards 

the end.

I travel in the dark
with silence 

consuming my being
And realize my dreams
now grow dim
And
Just as the last
bit
of
hope flickers
out
I hear the laughter
of children
a wisp
of a memory.

With this

rush

of 

oxygen

my hope is

reignighted

and I 

push fowards

towards

Eternity.