Listen

in early morning quiet

 I try to fall asleep

and pass the hours silently,

I listen to you breathe.

cold winter outside my window,

with a cloudless clear black sky,

and with one star shining brightest

I contemplate this life.  

taxonomy

 

they used to call me wizard

not so long ago

I’d use this mind to make them soar

and with their bread I’d learn some more

They used to call me teacher

                                preacher

                                angel

                                lover

                                lost

and now my name’s been changed again

I’m broken, dangerous

But he will call me love

and that’s all that there is

and with his breath I rise again

from a soul once very dead.

Terror.

sick at the mere thought 

of anything darin to hurt you 

I say a quick prayer

to a God who may have left this world 

and hope for your soul that he hasn't

 

with tears in these eyes 

I work harder to control 

this body which shakes 

beneath grief unknown to 

man

 

and as grief turns to rage 

I wonder why it is 

he ain't runnin yet. 

Lost in the hunting

Lost in the hunting

eyes mist

as you land that

final kiss

determined to walk away from

bliss

Lost in the hunting

skin shivers

as you climb that

final step

determined to continue on

living

in this cold

haiku

crunch stale almonds on

pearly whites while wondering

volatile dinner.

Futile Fidelity

Grit the teeth

wait

                 hammer falls

Hard on a lost cause

wait

                  patron, 

                                   saint

Eyes focused above 

wait

                   salvation hovers

Moments

 

too late

 

The Goal

I long for a time

without form,

void,

when nothing is everything

what's everything?

before life there was darkness

in darkness there was

something

sparking this life

some questions arose.

with multiverse theories abound

I wonder

which parallel gave us the ground

on which I now stand and ponder around

forming science

with all of its theories and laws

that somehow fit in to the ultimate cause

and this life is but one that perpetuates

the clear goal, still,

to proliferate

Words

I speak words

that hurt this soul

cutting deep to remove that

love, like a cancer

walk away

fogetting to breathe

icy air that chokes the throat

somewhere in the darkness

a single tear

falls.

Love like a cancer. . .

laugh loud and lilting
you sing with sparkling eyes
take a moment
watching
smiling eyes
wonder at reasons
but respect decisions
still
the not so hidden thoughts
of mind and soul
can't fill
emptiness
drive away
somehow
trying
understand,
know
even with you
close but distant

I'm still alone.

words fill my mind
hours later I dissect
every glance
moment
not with regret
but
somewhere
sadness
longing
you tried to understand
thankful,
without knowing
attempt to comprehend

love without expecting
but wanting all along

handle being broken
so long.

I go on alone
each day one step one time
I recall my training -

wake and thank the morning

and wonder at the night

Heart palpatations

with this

love like a cancer,

I'm losing and I'm not sure I care.

This medicine's too strong 

my will is weak 

I watch your smile 

and know defeat

I wake 

and thank 

the morning,

and wonder at the night.

Parallel

walk
forward
step
more
plain
pain
present

life
ice
dice
twice


far far away

division
mind
body
soul
mind


choice
=
life


//


I walk
slow forward
one step
more now
plain emotion
pain's devotion
present motion

life paused
ice melt
dice thrown
twice known

far far away

division hurts
mind wins
body wants
soul needs
mind relents

This choice
=
life again

Friendship

Don't ruminate.

illuminate!

lose the dread

and laugh at the tough

cause darlin I know its rough

but light =  fight

or maybe flight

and which ever way

you turn

I'll be by your side

I may poke and prod 

and urge you along

cause I've seen your Magic

your brains and your love

for the life that you've worked

so hard to make clear

So I'm here holding you 

up when you slip and slide

along this path on which we've tried

so hard to glide, hand in hand, side by side, 

I'm here. 

Keep breathin love,

cause the sky won't fall down today, 

not when I'm holdin it up this way. 

(For Amanda)

Forte

Lost in dreamtime
reflection of my own mind
piano plays constantly
changing growing arpeggios
grow louder until
the world is silenced
and all that remains
are these thoughts.

Recognize the pattern hidden
beneath the ramblings
of one mind clashing against another
stubborn opposition
will not change my position
and the beat carries me to the stratosphere
I fear the ionosphere
won't let me back down
as I lose my footing
in this search for ground

faint notes of fading arpeggios
lead me back to reality
where you remind me again
that I'm wrong.


Forte.

Lets Play Like

we're grown

off on our own

livin and lovin

like it just ain't nothin

Lets Play Like

we're real

like we know how we feel

as the wind swept us up

in this fantasy game

Lets Play Like

we're brave

like we're here to save

somthing important

but we don't understand

that this game has two hands

one that lifts us 

high into air 

where we breathe

sweet dreams and time machines

one that brings us back down

to the cold uneven ground

and reality reminds us

that love alone

aint enough to 

to provide the stuff

we'll need to survive

that game

Wisdom

a cat
fights in the alleyway
screams as a bite
tears precious flesh
from a face
thin and scarred
from lessons
in wisdom
on the street

Numb

awake and wonderin 

i listen to the song 

you sang to me that day 

when everything was wrong

music like a memory

brings your face to mind

and here i am

awake and wonderin

alone with the silence

the emptyness within

softly singing

breath against cool skin

i close my eyes, recalling

you're here with me again

i smile dispite myself

lookin in your eyes

and wonder how a person

can feel so alive

History

years of evolution

recall the bitter cold

ancestral hairs raise up

against a skin of pale gold

this is no solution

though the effort does persist

and yet I will survive

against cold winter's wish

Delightful!

With just a brief

glimpse

into the world

with life as short

as mine, it's easy

to remember

life still

will end, with time.

My purpose her is simple,

to proliferate

my species

much to your delight.

Study of a Soul

I study your face

finding piercing blue eyes

that hold some unanswered question.

My heart breaks again

as I watch you smile

away the thoughts

on your mind.

You stare right back into my eyes.

One second goes by

like a hundred years

While I struggle to turn my eyes

away from the mind

that so intrigues mine,

wondering who it was that you saw

when you looked into my soul.

There are many faces

wandering there

their own thoughts battle

the one

who, working to

maintain control

finds her grip slipping on this

young soul.

Born in an age where control is above

all else

--the means to survive

only those who persist

with the strength of an old mind

will

For the love of the world.

The species Homo sapiens has unarguably made the largest impact upon the Earth. By shaping and reshaping its landscapes, manipulating biological and chemical processes, and exploiting the species we share the biosphere with, humans have made the Earth their own. This possession comes with a responsibility to cultivate, care and repair—but without a united understanding of the importance of this responsibility the Earth will eventually have to fight back on its own. With ice, fire and rain, the balance will eventually be regained until the next dominant species becomes too greedy as well. The retribution has already begun; those who have realized this are fighting to educate the remainder of the species, to instill the knowledge and appreciation of the Earth and its systems in the young, with hope that they have time yet.

Good vs. Evil?

In the fight to survive
there are only two sides,
them versus us.
Who are we to define
who is that ultimate devine
in the battle between them versus us?
To them we are evil
and to us they're the same,
and to not pick a side is to most just insane.
Between worlds the evils always seem to change,
but a person can get lost in the darker shades of gray.
The innocents in either world are always the same,
and somehow they also make the easiest prey.